Sunday, August 03, 2008

coffee filters

he undressed her like
truck-stop waitresses separate
coffee filters
:thumb lick, pull, pile.
his practiced fingers
calloused by hunger
poured her breasts
into the mirror,
of a coffee shop bathroom.
he changed their shapes
like batter,
she breathed
spatula scratch against metal.

his extra vowels
and their paper-napkin language lessons
were followed by phone calls that don’t happen.

married men are pauses in—

numbered doors
after pin numbers
pressed at motel counters
noisy whispers
:in 108 rooms
eres mío mi amor,
as bath water splashed his stomach,
then her ankle

they un-soaped promises to—.

dried themselves
with tattered napkins—
sometimes love is noise
until you blot the vowels,
taste the earth,
of sex in Spanish.

Seafood Soup Fun, Bellies, and a Berm

Ever have your book club meet in the shady part of town to discuss Japanese literature while enjoying the culinary arts from the kitchen of a 24-hour card room/casino? I have...and if you ever want to do the same, or just need a place to go at 3:00 am for a cup of Seafood Soup Fun or Old Fashioned Spaghetti...or hell...both if it's been that kind of night (because sometimes it is that kind of night), go to Capitol Casino Card Room on N 16th in Downtown Sacramento.

I had selected Haruki Murakami's After Dark for my second turn in the book club. The book takes place in the underbelly of Tokyo in the hours after midnight when prostitutes and shady office workers roam the streets while skinny saxophone players drink milk and flirt with bookish girls in Denny's restaurants. It's a gem...really...it is. That pause and my need to reassure you tells me I should share with you the back story of my first book club choice and why I feel the need to justify my selections.

There is one in every group. I'm the one in my book club. When it's the turn of "the one", the group shrugs their collective shoulders to their cheeks and lip-curls their collective Billy Idol worthy sneer. They fear what the one will choose next. I have a reputation. And I've been punished for it. I've chosen books that are...well...not liked...and sometimes not even finished. Yes, I'm the bane of the book club.

My first choice was Snow by Orhan Pamuk. While I appreciated his painterly prose and literary devices...my friends disliked the slow drift of what they said was..."torture by Orhan." In our group, the person who selects the book also makes arrangements for a discussion and venue, usually dinner at a restaurant, and runs the evening with questions and food for thought. For Snow I chose Cafe Morocco on Alhambra Blvd in Midtown Sacramento. I wanted to bring life to our food-for-thought discussions and match the restaurant venue with the theme and culture of the book. And though my book was not well received, a tradition was born in the book club and meetings have since been crafted with care to create an overall experience. For What is the What by Dave Eggers we went to an Ethiopian restaurant, Addis Ababa and ate enjera with our firfir. Ahhh....books and the taste and sound of new words.

Insert my sound segue here. Not long before inflicting Snow on the group I had been introduced to the word "berm". I had never heard it before and soon learned it was a mound of earth (or even snow) that often serves as a fortification of some sort. But to me, the word berm, sounds like a place where you are sent for punishment. I jokingly started threatening one of my book club friends, who calls herself Arcane, that I would send her to the berm when she told me she didn't really care for Star Wars . OK...whatever book club calamity I create...to me not caring for Star Wars is worthy of being "sent to the berm." And so, "to the berm with you..." has often been invoked ever since as punishment.

When we met to discuss Snow I was greeted with what can be best described as castigation via a book club diorama. Arcane and her accomplice, who I call Closet Blue, had sent me to the berm, a snow berm, for my book choice. As we discussed how much they hated the book over couscous and baba ganooj while the belly dancer shook her belly in our faces, my gnomish picture stared back at me from the snow berm they made from cotton balls and book club rancor.

Of course I was nervous about my sophomore selection for book club—my friends are a little unforgiving of my literary tastes and I was facing book club banishment. So...if they didn't like the book again, I had better deliver on the themed venue to at least evoke what we read through taste and experience. For After Dark, I needed a restaurant and/or venue that matched the theme or locale of the book. I needed to find a 24-hour underbelly kind of place that would attract seedy underbelly kind of characters. By now you've noticed I like the word underbelly. And while I didn't want us to eat underbelly, I wanted us to experience it. And I bring you back to where I started, Capitol Casino Card Room on N 16th in Downtown Sacramento.

When would any of us ever go to a card room in the seedy part of town and be able to select from a range of menu items? All while discussing a surreal Japanese book? The card room menu has everything from Seafood Soup Fun to Salisbury Steak. There is even the 8 Treasures Tofu Bowl—what kind of treasure might you find in it? Strangely to us, the treasure includes assorted meat and seafood. We stayed away from the Treasured Tofu and couldn't really anticipate with ease how fun Seafood Soup Fun really could be. If you have to market seafood as fun...it's best to stay away from it.

And there we were, Arcane, Closet Blue and the rest of the book club, being suspiciously watched by the kitchen cooks, the server, and the transient clientele as we discussed After Dark. The entire group didn't give me a shrug or sneer, but they did give a quizzical but demanding, "What???" about the book. I wasn't successful again. Curses! They even threatened to frame my berm with a TV box (you have to read the book to get the reference...my way to get people to read what I think is a good book).

If you have been banishéd (yes that's a Shakespearean syllable), know you are not alone. Continue to choose books that you are interested in even if the group will chastise you and maybe even berm you. Being bermed makes you stronger—it gives you character. Just make sure you can offer a different and fun place to discuss your book. Be it underbelly and Seafood Soup Fun or belly dancing and baba ganooj—at least everyone can enjoy the taste of the book if not the story. Just be careful how you incorporate any kind of belly.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Disco and the Furry Bike

Sounds like the code names for a comic strip crime-fighting duo doesn't it? Or a 70s Starsky and Hutch wannabe partnership.

Disco: Disco here. Caught the dealer near the gallery. Copy Furry Bike.
Furry Bike: Furry Bike here. Copy Disco. Roger and out.
Disco: Who's Roger?
Furry Bike: Wait....What?

But no...it was just one of the many sights of Second Saturday...Sacramento (rid myself of a preposition in favor of end-of-sentence alliteration. It's a choice. I'm going with it.)

Sacramento needed Second Saturday like disco needed hip-hop to come along. Sacramento used to be as entertaining as the sound of sweaty polyester and the art of feathered bangs and Dr. Pepper flavored lip gloss. Well...actually I did like the lip gloss. But I digress. The city is turning urban, with art and people, and food, and places like Lounge on 20, and a reason to enjoy it besides the trees and a Delta breeze on a too-hot night. And I'm living right in the middle of it on Q and 16th.

The art galleries stuck it out when it wasn't an event that was highly attended. I remember being the only one in a gallery on several second Saturdays years ago. Now...you bump into people everywhere. And sometimes the art and the show is outside the galleries. Watch the people and let the texture of the sound in the air dance across the asphalt canvas. There are bongos on one corner and the next is a cello and hip hop worthy rhythm.

We bought Obama '08 stickers, saw guitar cases being painted yellow, joined what seemed to be a parade of people parading for....well I'm not sure for what...but it was fun and it was parade-like. We waved. People cheered us on. Isn't that what happens at parades?

We saw art. We saw people who are walking art. We saw bikes turned into art with a hot glue gun and disco balls...and it's friend was of the furry kind. There was even a guy who strapped his paintings to his art and rode around.

There are people of every color, many languages, families, single people, old people, strollers, wheel chairs, women in really high heels, art lovers and people finally proud of something intriguing and fun.

I will add that at the end of my urban art walk....just a few blocks away as I arrived home I saw a bike strangely unattended near the front lawn of my midtown Victorian apartment. It was a night of bikes it seemed. But this one didn't don disco balls or blue fur. But...wait...what did I see next?

A man peeing in my front yard.

I know what you're thinking. Maybe he had too much carrot juice from the woman selling vegan goodies on L street. The really weird thing though...besides finding a man peeing in my front yard after a night of art walk? He apologized. We chatted. And then he teased me...

Peeing Bike Boy: You're just jealous you can't whip it out and take a stand-up pee yourself.
Me: Maybe you're right bike boy....maybe I am a hater—
Peeing Bike Boy: Don't hate...congratulate.

And then he rode off into the night. Why...oh...why is every man I meet either married, gay...or a man who pees in front lawns? In this case...he was a gay man who pees in front lawns and if California doesn't amend the state constitution this Fall....he could be a married gay man who pees in front lawns. Let's hope that's the case.

It was such a good night...that even Peeing Bike Boy didn't ruin my new found awe at Sacramento finally getting culture right. So...I'll take a little pub(l)ic urination as long as there is art and furry bikes that kiss disco bikes on hot summer nights.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Tranny Kabuki Nuns From Outer Space

There comes a time in everyone's life that a break from the sadness of relationships, the mendacity of politics, the frayed threads of consumerism and just the down right doldrums and blues is needed.

Late on a Friday night I was in need of a break from such weariness of spirit and broken heart. My suggestion to anyone who suffers as I did:

Go to the Castro during Pride weekend. Actually go anytime. But during Pride there is that little bit of something extra that will make you forget about that estranged loved one and whiskey supplemented kinds of sadness.

I spent Saturday in the Castro with two former classmates. We found Nirvana and ate noodles with elephants and buddhas amidst giant leaves and bamboo. Our server gave us seperate checks (this truly must be Nirvana) and she had really cool stomach tattoos. Oh...but the relief had only just begun.

We met happy people smoking "pipes" around my car who waved and smiled and seemed like they might be elves during the winter months they were so jolly and good hearted.

We were jostled by larger than life Asian transvestites, flirted with by Tranny Kabuki Nuns from outer space, saw awfully pretty boys dancing in windows, pet the dog of the buffest New Jersey Gay men you've ever met who were just looking for the best tasting slice, saw toys worthy of Sumo status, marveled at men in white go-go boots and pink thongs...and nearly used our feather-boa super human powers to stop a fight.

I found my break from the sadness....and I found more than a break. I found love and freedom and tolerance and jubilation. And this isn't found here just one weekend out of the year. It's here all the time and is normal and sane and beautiful.

Oh...and we ate Hot Cookies on the way home.

Go. Find your own hot cookie and Tranny Kabuki Nun from Outer Space when you're torn apart....it's better than any remedy or drug or pillow to cry in. I'm still sad....but now I have memories and something else to attach to a weekend that might have been spent just crying in bed.



PS...Did I mention the petition to have a sewage plant named after George Bush? Well.....they are taking signatures on the corner of Castro and 17th.

Friday, June 27, 2008

Pieces of Murakami

After Dark (Vintage International) After Dark by Haruki Murakami


My review


rating: 4 of 5 stars
I really enjoyed this book. It didn't keep me on the edge of my seat like some books but it is staying with me well after having finished it like any Murakami does. Perhaps I'm attaching my own estranged relationship with my sister to my experience reading the book. Or maybe it's my own inner feeling of dread that I'm attaching to it...my inner cell-phone ringing and I know if I answer it the voice will say...."you're not going to get away with it." Or maybe it's because I just love the attention to seemingly regular and mundane images or things like coffee cups on tables in a Denny's.



Ultimately....like a lot of things I love...it's the intangible. Pure chemistry. This book and this writer have it. Murakami is a sensual writer.



I do feel this book is a little like sorbet in the middle of a very succulent meal. It cleanses the palate between other grander and greater tastes. But it's not tasteless. It has the subtle and sweet taste of cool blackberries or fresh mango. Just right when you need it.



Murakami is so very skilled and sublte and sleek and brilliant. I fell in love with his writing when I read "Kafka on the Shore" and am certainly a devotee after reading this sleek and short piece of art.


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Sunday, June 08, 2008

Miracle Fish

Reviews were rare for my second effort in playwriting. If you missed it, Miracle Fish is a play about how we often don't make decisions for ourselves. It's about filtering our decisions and using objects and belief systems to do the work we should be doing ourselves. Think Magic 8 Balls, Jesus Fish, Cracker Jacks, and thunder. The play has a cast of 5 characters, 1 female and 4 males.

Here is one of the reviews for the production: The California Aggie

Pictured are Kevin Ganger as Thomas and Heidi Kendrick as Samira from my play Miracle Fish as produced by the University of California at Davis as part of the THIRDeYE Theatre Festival. Photo courtesy of the University of California, Davis.

I shot and edited a short :30 second trailer for the play for a film class as well.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Kellie, Part III....

Coming soon.

As she prepares for grad school, trying to write whole plays, and finish that third dense Faulkner book. Oh you, Faulkner. Genius and tormentor in one.

As she slowly says goodbye to the ghosts she's held by the hand for far too long.

As she finishes 19 units at school while working 40 hours at work, collaborating with peers who could be her children and enjoying every sleepless life every second.

As she...well....to be continued.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Left

What I have left doesn’t prove
you were ever really here.
When I try to clasp what you were—
it’s like my feuds with the flies in the air
as they girdle for honey.
Isn’t that proof of your existence?
Two species warring
for your keening scent,
to feed on your viscous salt.

I collected what reminds me of you—
torpid objects folded in paper towels
(the kind with embossed little stoves).
The necklace that didn’t fit,
whispered against the cardboard lid
of the box as it fell in
near a photo that presumes
it knows your lips against my hair—
taken the night we plum wined
ourselves to death.
Wasn’t that you I was with—
brandied in bed, bedecked in sweat?

I tried to inventory what I felt.
Or what I have left?
Felt? Left?
They are the same.
The walls refuse
to tell me what they saw.
And all I’m certain of is how
the enclosures of that room
felt against my hands, fingertips
when I was pressed
into purple painted wood.
And a spot where we splintered
the paint away, you behind me
is all that is certain—
left, felt.